So after a weekend of screwing up... Damn the weekends! I have such a hard time with the weekends. If anyone has any tips for stopping weekend bingeing (overindulging) feel free to share them!
Back to my point... I'm fed up! I have decided that I am going to go full-time green smoothies for 4 days. Nothing but green smoothies. I have the produce, I like the smoothies, I will still be getting enough calories... So I'm going to give it a try. I even went and bought some more mason jars so that I can make all my smoothies the night before.
I'm intrigued by water fasting and am considering doing a short one but I don't want to do it during the middle of the week you know?
Anyway, I'm not too worried because I feel good ad satisfied when I drink green smoothies, but I get so tempted by "feel good" foods (emotional eating). I'm hoping I can combat that with having all the smoothies already made. Also I worry about the detoxing symptoms... Maybe not worried, but definitely not looking forward to them! LOL We will see how it goes!
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Fasting Day 5 & 6
Day 5
Started well with a green smoothie but before lunch time even hit Mostest's school called and I had to go pick him up because he was not feeling good. We then went and got some comfort food (bad I know!) and snuggled and rested the rest of the day.
Day 6
Breakfast: Spinach (they didn't have any kale at the store! The horror!!), banana, pineapple, raspberry smoothie
Snack (treat): Soy raspberry mocha glacier with sugar free syrup
Lunch: Honey crisp apple, clementine, 3 TB cashews
Dinner: 6 inch subway melt with broccoli and cheese soup and a reese's sticks as a treat
Total calories: 1731
Exercise: I worked out with a friend today and she introduced me to the cross training setting on the elliptical machines! :) I did 6 miles in 65 minutes and it was haaaaard with all the different stuff the machine was telling me to do!
I actually felt really good today. I didn't feel woozy at the gym and I had energy throughout the day. I'm really starting to feel a difference in my body but I'm too scared to get on the scale! LOL
Started well with a green smoothie but before lunch time even hit Mostest's school called and I had to go pick him up because he was not feeling good. We then went and got some comfort food (bad I know!) and snuggled and rested the rest of the day.
Day 6
Breakfast: Spinach (they didn't have any kale at the store! The horror!!), banana, pineapple, raspberry smoothie
Snack (treat): Soy raspberry mocha glacier with sugar free syrup
Lunch: Honey crisp apple, clementine, 3 TB cashews
Dinner: 6 inch subway melt with broccoli and cheese soup and a reese's sticks as a treat
Total calories: 1731
Exercise: I worked out with a friend today and she introduced me to the cross training setting on the elliptical machines! :) I did 6 miles in 65 minutes and it was haaaaard with all the different stuff the machine was telling me to do!
I actually felt really good today. I didn't feel woozy at the gym and I had energy throughout the day. I'm really starting to feel a difference in my body but I'm too scared to get on the scale! LOL
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Slight slip-up but back at it, Fast Day 4
Okay... so I had a 4 day "slump".... Boo! That is what I have to say about that.
I had soda, cup cakes, chinese food, I even had McDonald's chicken nuggets. (Makes my stomach turn now just thinking about it.
Here's what I noticed during these 4 slip-up days:
-I felt physically sick
-I felt super bloated
-I felt stuffed
-I feel emotionally sick
-I felt worthless
-I felt weak
I just felt generally awful! Now today, but on my fasting/cleansing groove I feel great! A little "cleansing" effect on my bowels but what can you expect after 4 days of eating like crap and then getting back at it?
Fast Day 5
Pre-breakfast: 3TB raw apple cider vinegar with water
Breakfast: Kale, banana, pineapple, raspberry smoothie
Lunch: Honeycrisp apple, cashews, raisins, clementine
Snack (treat): Soy raspberry mocha glacier with sugar free syrup
Dinner: 6 inch sweet onion chicken teryaki at subway, broccoli and cheese soup, 6 squares of orange peel dark chocolate bar (soooo yummy!)
Total calories:1575
Exercise: 6.5 miles in 65 minutes on the elliptical on the hilly setting. I felt weak-ish and my knee was being weird so I lowered the "level" and didn't push myself as hard as usual. But I still did it!
I had soda, cup cakes, chinese food, I even had McDonald's chicken nuggets. (Makes my stomach turn now just thinking about it.
Here's what I noticed during these 4 slip-up days:
-I felt physically sick
-I felt super bloated
-I felt stuffed
-I feel emotionally sick
-I felt worthless
-I felt weak
I just felt generally awful! Now today, but on my fasting/cleansing groove I feel great! A little "cleansing" effect on my bowels but what can you expect after 4 days of eating like crap and then getting back at it?
Fast Day 5
Pre-breakfast: 3TB raw apple cider vinegar with water
Breakfast: Kale, banana, pineapple, raspberry smoothie
Lunch: Honeycrisp apple, cashews, raisins, clementine
Snack (treat): Soy raspberry mocha glacier with sugar free syrup
Dinner: 6 inch sweet onion chicken teryaki at subway, broccoli and cheese soup, 6 squares of orange peel dark chocolate bar (soooo yummy!)
Total calories:1575
Exercise: 6.5 miles in 65 minutes on the elliptical on the hilly setting. I felt weak-ish and my knee was being weird so I lowered the "level" and didn't push myself as hard as usual. But I still did it!
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Fast Day 3
Breakfast: Kale, pomegranate, raspberry, clementine smoothie
Treat: Raspberry mocha glacier
Lunch: 2 pieces of pizza, 1 cup of ice cream
Dinner: 2 servings of shrimp with 1/4c of cocktail sauce and a salad
Total calories: 1846
Exercise: I did 6.76 miles on the elliptical in 65 minutes and did 10k(6.2m) in 59 min on the hilly setting. I felt really woozy through most of the work out but I stuck it out!
So I kind of messed up by eating the pizza and ice cream at a work thing today... it was not "approved" food and it put me over my 1500 cal goal. But I still did fairly good intake wise and I turned it around with dinner instead of just saying "Well I screwed up already so might as well keep make poor food choices..."
Treat: Raspberry mocha glacier
Lunch: 2 pieces of pizza, 1 cup of ice cream
Dinner: 2 servings of shrimp with 1/4c of cocktail sauce and a salad
Total calories: 1846
Exercise: I did 6.76 miles on the elliptical in 65 minutes and did 10k(6.2m) in 59 min on the hilly setting. I felt really woozy through most of the work out but I stuck it out!
So I kind of messed up by eating the pizza and ice cream at a work thing today... it was not "approved" food and it put me over my 1500 cal goal. But I still did fairly good intake wise and I turned it around with dinner instead of just saying "Well I screwed up already so might as well keep make poor food choices..."
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Fast Day 1 & 2
Day 1
Breakfast: Kale, pomegranate, raspberry, clementine smoothie
Lunch: Banana, 1/2 an orange, 2 TB trailmix, honey crisp apple, 1 slice of Great Harvest bread
Snack: (treat really) Raspberry mocha glacier
Dinner: Salad with cherry tomatoes, avocado and Lemon Goddess dressing
Total calories: 1466
Exercise: I did 65 minutes on the elliptical. I did 10k(6.2miles) in 61 minutes on a hilly setting. At about the 30 minute mark I got a little woozy and faint but I kept going and the feeling went away in less than 5 minutes.
Day 2:
Breakfast: Raspberry mocha glacier
Lunch: Oroweat thin (1/2), 2 TB nutella, calorie free energy drink
Dinner: nothing (I'll explain)
Total calories: 460
Exercise: A TON of cleaning.
So here's the story... I got a call last night from the landlord saying that a real estate guy is going to be doing a walk thru of the house tomorrow to get the ball rolling to sell the house. (They used to B&B with this house, which has 2 apartments and a bagillion bedrooms throughout the other sections) So I did some cleaning yesterday and continued today. It's not that the house way THAT dirty/messy, it's just that I am a very "over achiever/compulsive cleaner" and when I get going I just keeeeeeep going. If I see anything that has a spot on it or needs to be organized I NEED to do, I can't just tidy here and there.
So I kept saying to myself "I'll stop and eat soon" but never did. Then it became "I'll eat when I'm done." So I finish at 11pm and realize that I can't eat past 8:45 pm tonight because I am getting a fasting blood draw done tomorrow morning! So here it is 11pm and I have been cleaning like a maniac since noon and I have only eaten 460 calories and can't eat anymore! LAME! lol
But daaaamn is my house clean! :) It is as clean as it was when we moved it! And waaay more organized!
Breakfast: Kale, pomegranate, raspberry, clementine smoothie
Lunch: Banana, 1/2 an orange, 2 TB trailmix, honey crisp apple, 1 slice of Great Harvest bread
Snack: (treat really) Raspberry mocha glacier
Dinner: Salad with cherry tomatoes, avocado and Lemon Goddess dressing
Total calories: 1466
Exercise: I did 65 minutes on the elliptical. I did 10k(6.2miles) in 61 minutes on a hilly setting. At about the 30 minute mark I got a little woozy and faint but I kept going and the feeling went away in less than 5 minutes.
Day 2:
Breakfast: Raspberry mocha glacier
Lunch: Oroweat thin (1/2), 2 TB nutella, calorie free energy drink
Dinner: nothing (I'll explain)
Total calories: 460
Exercise: A TON of cleaning.
So here's the story... I got a call last night from the landlord saying that a real estate guy is going to be doing a walk thru of the house tomorrow to get the ball rolling to sell the house. (They used to B&B with this house, which has 2 apartments and a bagillion bedrooms throughout the other sections) So I did some cleaning yesterday and continued today. It's not that the house way THAT dirty/messy, it's just that I am a very "over achiever/compulsive cleaner" and when I get going I just keeeeeeep going. If I see anything that has a spot on it or needs to be organized I NEED to do, I can't just tidy here and there.
So I kept saying to myself "I'll stop and eat soon" but never did. Then it became "I'll eat when I'm done." So I finish at 11pm and realize that I can't eat past 8:45 pm tonight because I am getting a fasting blood draw done tomorrow morning! So here it is 11pm and I have been cleaning like a maniac since noon and I have only eaten 460 calories and can't eat anymore! LAME! lol
But daaaamn is my house clean! :) It is as clean as it was when we moved it! And waaay more organized!
Monday, October 25, 2010
Fast?
I am thinking about doing a fast. Not a no-food fast, not even a juice fast. Just a "just fruits and veggies" fast.
I have been on a roll with tracking my calories with my GoWearFit for almost 2 weeks I believe. Even on the days I didn't want to see how much I ate or how little I burned. But I did it. Now the thing is.... I can add up all the calorie deficits I have been created but it is not translating to the scale at all! It is very frustrating and disheartening.
Which is what brings me to the fasting. I am just going to give it a shot. Nothing else is making a difference. (I am also getting my thyroid checked AGAIN this week, and will get the results Nov 13th).
If I can manage it I will keep tabs on here about how I'm doing and how it feels.
I have been on a roll with tracking my calories with my GoWearFit for almost 2 weeks I believe. Even on the days I didn't want to see how much I ate or how little I burned. But I did it. Now the thing is.... I can add up all the calorie deficits I have been created but it is not translating to the scale at all! It is very frustrating and disheartening.
Which is what brings me to the fasting. I am just going to give it a shot. Nothing else is making a difference. (I am also getting my thyroid checked AGAIN this week, and will get the results Nov 13th).
If I can manage it I will keep tabs on here about how I'm doing and how it feels.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Drowning in Self-Loathing
It's tangible...
I can feel it pressing down on me...
Pulling me down...
Threatening to swallow me up...
This self-loathing.
Dissappointed... in myself
Angry... with myself
Sad... within myself
Seething... at myself
Hating... myself
I know I should put some positive spin on this, look on the brightside, "whatever doesn't kill you makes you strong" blah blah blah. But I can't. Not right now. I have these lofty goals of losing weight (which is working for shit by the way) but truthfully I'm barely treading water in life much less the weight loss realm.
Times like this I long for the times when stress made me *not* want to eat... At least something would be moving in the right direction...
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