Self-Doubt, Self-Hate, Self-Sabotage... Self-Confidence.

I'm having on of those days...

                              Where I doubt and I hate and probably sabotage too.

I have been sitting here sitting stewing. Thinking about things I have done and things I haven't done. Are they enough, are they the right things? Am I doing this right? That right? Anything right?

Why can't I seem to succeed in losing weight? What's wrong with me? (Boy, there's a list that could get long...)

I'm emotionally exhausted right now, right this minute.
                                             From all my self-doubt and self-hate.

There are many great things about me, great things in my life, great people in my life...

But right now all I can see is
                                what I'm not
                                      what I'm failing at
                                            what I'm not sure of.

And to be honest I'm not sure what to do about it.

All I can do right now is listen to this song and try to take this advice:  

♫You're so mean

When you talk
About yourself
You are wrong
Change the voices
In your head
Make them like you
Instead ♫


                                                              Fucking Perfect by Pink